As your poisonous words
Travel through my brain,
My body eventually goes numb.
Every lie sounded so good
that I decided to settle
because you were all I knew.
My whole identity is lost
right where you left it.
I lost all of me, to me.
Even in my dreams I’m a Queen.
Someone that sticks to business and conveys what they mean.
You had none of those qualities.
All you knew was how to justify
and contradict your words.
Everything you said
Was never worth being heard.
“I love you” was equivalent to a “hi”.
You left me out there alone, weak.
You weren’t even half the person I believed in.
I looked in the mirror and saw more to myself than You could ever comprehend.
I’ve accepted my flaws that you downed.
Beginning to wonder why I even stuck around.
No longer wishing for revenge.
just to better myself &
make a happy ending.
When you see me doing better
please don’t come for me.
The satisfaction that you lost
Someone so wonderful
is just enough for me.
You’re the person I no longer desire.
My heart is no longer filled
Your worth could never
be compared to mine.
Queens recognize Kings,
and now that my vision is cleared
you don’t look very acquainted.
First impressions are everything,
as they say.
So I work to make a name.
You can fall in love with my words,
But I rather show you my abilities.
Honesty goes as far as the ocean,
where we both meet.
The past is rotting away
Along with your pain.
Going into another stream that
I pray is never seen.
You invest in my actions
while I seep through your soul.
Your acknowledgment about what is going to transpire,
shows your fear
which releases within.
Time is nonexistent to me
when your love feels timeless.
Looking back on the past,
the new experience brought nothing but good vibes
that are expected to last.
We are lost in one another
while embracing the moment.
With so many walls to break,
The effort feels pointless.
I have lived this story before and
It ended up as a nightmare.
Your unspoken words show
hopeless pests inside your brain holding you back
from a greater future
they would hate for you to gain.
Blind to our combined power,
Independency over rules.
Due to pride and a closed mind
your love has ran out of time…
that I never even had.
Explosions of memories that have been reciprocated and recreated.
The next time around,
I’ll be so faded that
Your existence will be hidden.
As I open my eyes,
I snap back into reality.
Only to find out my dreams are what I want to be living.
I catch myself reminiscing
but it’s starting to look like a blurry picture.
Smoke in the sky on a sunny day,
I start to choke on my words
As they begin to become irrelevant.
Views of separation make me cringe
Life is moving too fast.
Nothing but good intentions
to make this moment last.
Explosions of water to stop the fire,
But it spreads farther.
Any movement is put on pause
Watching the memories crumble like cookies,
Life got me feeling like a rookie.
Feelings turn into ashes,
Actions turn into dust.
No longer yearning for the past
In due time, this too shall pass
The air after the fire
got me feeling like a new butterfly
with one broken wing but still alive.
Somethings have to die
in order for others to survive.
Beginning to feel like
the World is mine.
Someone like me is hard to find..
Appreciate the moment,
You’ll be just fine.
Hiding from the upcoming snow
in a pile of leaves
Life is art
And you are the painting
Good vibes, long hard working nights
Ruined by dissatisfaction
Avoiding the wait of progressing
The time seems to fly better when you’re alone.
Funny when things change,
you’re the only one stuck in a time zone that is no longer existent.
All your thoughts proceed to cloud your vision.
Wondering why the seasons changed
Who you know becomes who you knew
You’re still stuck in fall meanwhile it’s summer.
Dodging reality because it contributes to your insanity
Desire your wants without desperation.
Motivation and dedication will leave you ready for the next celebration.
Spring rolls around and the flowers are blooming.
The sun contributes to your initial happiness.
Even when it pours,
you still feel like the world is yours.